I was there too

I have read a post on MSS site of a person feeling suicidal. That is an incredibly hard place to find oneself in, but totally understandable 100% and 2 years ago I was in that very same place, alone  and a very very dark  place to be one of complete isolation. I didnt want to live, but didnt want to die either. TODAY I feel so differently, my Dad taught me all about D,I.Y. and that something doesnt work for a reason, I have FOUND my reason, a MISALIGNED ATLAS that has caused me many problems by causing knock on effects of not being able to function normally.

In a way because I had got to a point of which way do I turn, is why this blog exists, I had many theories and ideas in my head, but no opportunity to let others hear or even contemplate them, I tried the avenue of accessing others subtedly and very carefully, as not to cause distress through the MSS website, but as I see it, I was silenced by some very self centred and egotistical people, I was not there for their benefit, but others
to inject some possitivity, I had two hats a Funny hat and a Serious hat, others had grown to know the difference between the two, some just didnt get it, and those shouted me down at every opportunity until others couldnt hear from the heckling and that is why I left and these same people profess to others that they are very good huggy people, full of empathy and status in the ms world, but with me, very crafty, underhand, ganging uppy, and bordering on bullying I am sure as I have witnessed this very same tactic used with others, Such a wrong and disgraceful thing to have done, very wrong indeed. I pleaded my innocence to the website Manager, then to a person more senior, who had basically the same unprofessional non bias, so then even went to the top, only to be yet again ignored, and this is eally a worry, they managed to delete every email sent to me by themselves, as if they didnt exist, this was dispicable as messes with the head, but I have learnt that mine cant be messed with, anyways a good computer analyst can make those now ghosts materialise again, as and when I decide they are required. I couldnt continue to go against such a large blinkered  organisation,I had no chance, no chance at all, but here I now have one and on my own terms to. up until my very first ban from the site I had never ever breached any terms and conditions non at all.