Thursday, 5 May 2011

I suppose I am in denial, yeah I am

Because what I am saying is so unbelievable is why this blog is not public knowledge, it looks like the wrong tree has been barked at, for many years. I have been where many diagnosed find themselves today, in pain, with flexing/spasm juddering/tremor, trippy feet/dropped foot, as you can see I detest the phases/language used to describe certain aspects. I have also had terrible bladder sensitivity, many accidents, which were erradicated by acupuncture along bladder, as was heat intolerance, as heat energy is wasted through the bladder, this is my third year no accidents, no heat intolerance. I even got to the stage that I didnt want to live, but at the same time I didnt want to die. The psychological impact of diagnosis alone is massive. Stress exaserpates much, and is awful and terribly frustrating. I have had the risk of falling out of bed, when moving, I have sustained some lovely black eyes from falling uncontrolably on my face.

Today I feel very very different and very optamistic and looking forward to my future. 10 years of my life have been lost, through a gross mistake. I am not alone, not at all many question their circumstance but are quietened by the words "in denial".

Well I am shouting loud and very clear that I do  "deny MS" I deny it to my core. So my MRI was possitive, but possitive for what? Looks like it is back to basics, Look at us with new fresh eyes and throw out that MS handbook

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