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Ashley Lintz
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.Two weeks in and this is so awful...I have ruined my
relationship with my boyfriend of almost two years we have a 1 month old
baby together and I decided to quit for a Job and School program. He
keeps calling me crazy and I keep trying to explain to him that these
withdraw feelings are so serious it makes me cry. I never believed I
was so addicted that Id cry to smoke.. He smokes and when he goes
outside and smokes and comes back in and I smell it I get so angry and I
try to explain that it seems impossible for me to stay with him while
he smokes and I don't, but I dont want to loose the opportunity of a
family. I read all these blogs and see that others feel the same the
anxiety is so overwhelming that I just want to smoke to get rid of it. I
have antidepressants but they make me so nauseous the last time I was
on the I don't even think they worked. I so mad at myself for even
starting because everyday it seems to worsen and now Im in this house
with my three children alone going through this becuase the person I
thought was my partner can't handle my emtional withdraws from this. I
believe he feels Im just making it up. I wake him up in the night
because I can't sleep and I think about it and try to explain how his
smoking around me is driving me down more and he get so angry with me
cause Im weak and burdeing my want to stop on him and he doesn't want
to. Im sitting here at mmy computer in tears because I feel like this
is never going to end and it is one of the awfulest feelings the
depression alone makes me want to just stay in my room all day and cry.
Any other advice of how to help my relationship and myself.
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