So what possitive differences have I experienced in 2010,
I had flexing (spasm in medical speak) particularly in right leg when wanting to go to loo for a wee.
Juddering (tremor med speak) in right leg but if I raised my arm out horizontally to the side, could stop it, I believe a build up of tension in my upper right back caused this, and phycological tension was made worse by misalignment. now tremor has gone, and only happens occassionally, but can be stopped by readjusting my positioning.
Tingly neck to tip of right hand (l'hermittes) this happened when bending neck forward, now has gone.
Trippy feet (dropped foot), although unable to stand at the mo as right calf muscles very painful, before this happened wasnt happening.
numerous wetting accidents, due to acupuncture on bladder line which enabled that area to strengthen, has stopped, no accidents for nearly 2 years.
when leaning forward out of my chair to pick something up would just fall forward to the floor, as my core has strengthened this now doesnt happen.
Moving in bed and overbalancing and falling out, now does not happen.
Can now bounce a ball where as before could not.
No I'm not yet perfect, but hey! have come a long way.
Tuesday, 4 January 2011
just the opposite
My right side is incredibly tight that from my hip to my ribcage, a bit like a really strong piece of elastic is attached to my right hip to half way up my rib cage. Also I have inly been able to sleep on my left side only for years. Anyway last night in bed something occurred to me, that its not my right side that is causing the probllem but my left. so I put a pillow under my side opposite. Doing this created although painfull at first had a positive result. it pushed up my left side and levelled out my right. Altough at first the pillow was uncomfortable, eventually felt much easier. I already sleep with a pillow in between my legs to stop my spine and hips twisting to the right. So yet again several problems occur together causing my spine to not only twist, but to fall down to the left when laying down.
Monday, 3 January 2011
They've got it so wrong
The more I research, the more I learn, the bigger their mistake is realised and yes it makes me angry, very angry indeed, but not just from my aspect, as I know what needs to be done in my case, but their mistakes continue today (them being the NHS) I know it all seems mad, but its not and probably the most sane thing I've ever said. No i am not a scientist, no I do not have a degree, no medical training, life has been my only teacher and I know my body now inside and out and that I have no doubt, no doubt at all.
Sress v MS diagnosis
The coinsidence of this is incredible. I was watching a programme last night that stated that life in Denmark was a much less stressfull one, therefore I have come to the conclusion that the rate of MS diagnosis which is a result of stress, will be far less in Denmark than in other countries
Spine and bladder
I am going to try and explain something that I have realised in the last few hours, so here goes:
As my bladder fills I believe it presses on the area where my spine has twisted due to my misaligned Atlas, which is my lower spine within the hip area, and this in turn causes much discomfort/pain in this area until I go to the toilet and forcibly by bending forward and hugging legs and squeezing urine from my bladder, at first this is hard to start as area is very tense but as soon as start there is a sense of relaxation to this very tense and tight area. Now that may make sense to someone out there as it does to me, and has a possitive effect.
As my bladder fills I believe it presses on the area where my spine has twisted due to my misaligned Atlas, which is my lower spine within the hip area, and this in turn causes much discomfort/pain in this area until I go to the toilet and forcibly by bending forward and hugging legs and squeezing urine from my bladder, at first this is hard to start as area is very tense but as soon as start there is a sense of relaxation to this very tense and tight area. Now that may make sense to someone out there as it does to me, and has a possitive effect.
2011, new attitude, new eyes, new focus
My promise to all like me in 2011, is I will always be here, to give others the choice and opportunity to make up their own minds. I've made up mine, and with this ball I now run, I will walk, but it is only then that I can openly talk. As there are so many stories and perhapses out there for those diagnosed with in my case this fictitious and man made condition. I will not just fade away, I will make my stand (eventually physically) and I will be heard, but for now just here.
I was there too
I have read a post on MSS site of a person feeling suicidal. That is an incredibly hard place to find oneself in, but totally understandable 100% and 2 years ago I was in that very same place, alone and a very very dark place to be one of complete isolation. I didnt want to live, but didnt want to die either. TODAY I feel so differently, my Dad taught me all about D,I.Y. and that something doesnt work for a reason, I have FOUND my reason, a MISALIGNED ATLAS that has caused me many problems by causing knock on effects of not being able to function normally.
In a way because I had got to a point of which way do I turn, is why this blog exists, I had many theories and ideas in my head, but no opportunity to let others hear or even contemplate them, I tried the avenue of accessing others subtedly and very carefully, as not to cause distress through the MSS website, but as I see it, I was silenced by some very self centred and egotistical people, I was not there for their benefit, but others
to inject some possitivity, I had two hats a Funny hat and a Serious hat, others had grown to know the difference between the two, some just didnt get it, and those shouted me down at every opportunity until others couldnt hear from the heckling and that is why I left and these same people profess to others that they are very good huggy people, full of empathy and status in the ms world, but with me, very crafty, underhand, ganging uppy, and bordering on bullying I am sure as I have witnessed this very same tactic used with others, Such a wrong and disgraceful thing to have done, very wrong indeed. I pleaded my innocence to the website Manager, then to a person more senior, who had basically the same unprofessional non bias, so then even went to the top, only to be yet again ignored, and this is eally a worry, they managed to delete every email sent to me by themselves, as if they didnt exist, this was dispicable as messes with the head, but I have learnt that mine cant be messed with, anyways a good computer analyst can make those now ghosts materialise again, as and when I decide they are required. I couldnt continue to go against such a large blinkered organisation,I had no chance, no chance at all, but here I now have one and on my own terms to. up until my very first ban from the site I had never ever breached any terms and conditions non at all.
In a way because I had got to a point of which way do I turn, is why this blog exists, I had many theories and ideas in my head, but no opportunity to let others hear or even contemplate them, I tried the avenue of accessing others subtedly and very carefully, as not to cause distress through the MSS website, but as I see it, I was silenced by some very self centred and egotistical people, I was not there for their benefit, but others
to inject some possitivity, I had two hats a Funny hat and a Serious hat, others had grown to know the difference between the two, some just didnt get it, and those shouted me down at every opportunity until others couldnt hear from the heckling and that is why I left and these same people profess to others that they are very good huggy people, full of empathy and status in the ms world, but with me, very crafty, underhand, ganging uppy, and bordering on bullying I am sure as I have witnessed this very same tactic used with others, Such a wrong and disgraceful thing to have done, very wrong indeed. I pleaded my innocence to the website Manager, then to a person more senior, who had basically the same unprofessional non bias, so then even went to the top, only to be yet again ignored, and this is eally a worry, they managed to delete every email sent to me by themselves, as if they didnt exist, this was dispicable as messes with the head, but I have learnt that mine cant be messed with, anyways a good computer analyst can make those now ghosts materialise again, as and when I decide they are required. I couldnt continue to go against such a large blinkered organisation,I had no chance, no chance at all, but here I now have one and on my own terms to. up until my very first ban from the site I had never ever breached any terms and conditions non at all.
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